NSFW language, because I'm on my soapbox.

Just..... seriously. Wtf.

I am so fucking sick and tired of people (mostly of the Religious persuasion) picking and choosing what/who they're going to judge and what/who they're going to accept, and which Biblical laws they should follow, and which to discard.
Oh, and which ones to make up.

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The following judgements will be made to you courtesy of my religious upbringing (and, for the most part, real-life experience with people inside the Baptist Church of which I was a member), and are, apparently, just fine in the eyes of the deity and all Christians:

• Seduce a youth pastor and ruin his marriage.
• Have a kid without getting married, move in with baby daddy, have another kid. 
• Be a raging judgemental Planned-Parenthood bombing type of Christian. (the bombing part is an exaggeration... or is it?)
• Be a Republican Presidential candidate who's against all things gay, but have Grindr on your phone.
• Wish death and destruction on other countries/cultures/peoples/gays.
• Actually bomb Planned Parenthoods.
• Damn and judge people openly on street corners downtown.
• Maybe become a priest and have sex with young boys.
• Own companies, and use the profit to support Anti-gay (and anti-everything good) organizations, pose as a teenage girl on facebook to shame people posting on their wall, lie a lot.... 
• Cry out that you're oppressed, when in all actuality, you're oppressing everyone else. 

BUT SOMEHOW BEING GAY IS WORSE THAN ALL THE STUPID SHIT THAT CHRISTIANS DO THEMSELVES.
And let's be honest, that's just the tip of the iceberg of shit that Christians/religious folk do to one another, and every one else.

http://koknbawlz.tumblr.com/post/28270842066

I just.... what?


I am sick and fucking tired of Christians telling me where I'm going when I die, or how to live my life, or judging me when, according to their own religious text - no one can do that except God.

UGH. My own Mother commented a friend's status and mentioned that every time someone says anything against the LGBT community, we freak out and get up in arms, and there's no reasoning with us.

.....which, I commented on the same thing, and got up in arms but it was because the article the person posted about the Chick-Fil-A debacle was completely ridiculous and unfounded. It wasn't even an article - it was BLOG POST. Sorry I'm not sorry that I don't base my opinions and beliefs on BLOG POSTS. I read facts. I read MULTIPLE sources. DO YOUR RESEARCH before your post something stupid on your facebook wall and talk about it like it's Scripture.

i don't know who i stole this from.

But if the Religious community wants to freak out every time anyone else comments on their shit, but the LGBT community can't say ANYTHING to defend ourselves, or to reach out to them and help them realize we're PEOPLE, we're oppressing them. We're being dicks to them. But I guess I shouldn't expect Fundies to have any sense to see logic, considering the shit they shout on street corners or open forums or anywhere else people might overhear them saying "girls who were open toe shoes are sluts" "Marrying a divorced woman is adultery and you're going to hell."

http://atheist-overdose.tumblr.com/

So just back the fuck off, you crazy Christian weirdos.
Because YOUR God was the one who made me gay.
I didn't choose to have my heart go pitter-patter and nearly burst out of my chest with I met Girlfriend.
Because that's what happened.
And that's what happens every single day.
Who could hate that? I just don't get it.
It's whatever EVERYONE wishes, and hopes, and dreams for.

I didn't choose this. I didn't choose to have my Mom hate me, or my Dad make transphobic "as long as you don't want to BE a boy" comments after I say I want to cut my hair really short...
I didn't choose to have people stare at me when I shop at walmart, holding my girlfriend's hand.
I didn't choose to have people judge me, or have the option to fire me for being gay, or kick me out of where I'm living because I'm gay.
I didn't choose to be nervous going to eat at places like Lambert's. (What if people stare? What if we get kicked out? What if people are mean to us/spit in our food/give us poor service?)

I've been very lucky. I have an extremely amazing support system. I have a job, a college degree, an incredible relationship, ways to support myself....
But a lot of kids don't have that.
They get kicked out of their house (like Girlfriend), disowned....
There are hate crimes...
Like this one
And this one
And this one
And this one
And this
And this
And this.
This. 
This. 

And of course things like Same Sex Couple Denied Wedding Cake By Bakery, and the couple who were denied a wedding announcement in their local paper (by, hey-o... joke's on you, newspaper, since their upcoming nuptials now have international attention!)...

And of course, the creation of such LGBT self-defense groups like Pink Pistols.

No one would choose this.

Don't get me wrong. I've never been so happy (gay, if you will ;D ). I am the happiest and healthiest I've ever been (Girlfriend and I are working out and eating right!).
But sometimes it's hard.
Sometimes you just want to move to Canada... okay, actually, a lot of the time I want to move to Canada, but Girlfriend says we don't have enough money to do that right now.

All I'm saying is that it's exhausting to be constantly surrounded by religious bigots who throw around Scripture like everyone believes it and should follow it.
Or, they make things up like "Jesus hates gays."
Once again, Religious people... do your research. Jesus didn't say anything about teh gayz.


If we're all human, we should all have the same rights.
We should know by now that we can't judge anyone, and from our own judgments base how we treat other humans.
It's unfair.
Always practice empathy.



And now I'd like to list today's gay agenda (mostly I just wanted to use that photo....)

http://atrocious-stories.tumblr.com/

Yell at the cat for being annoying, then feed him.
Put a load of laundry in the washing machine.
Throw out beer bottles.
Sit on my couch with the blinds closed and cruise around Tumblr.
Make some coffee, maybe add some milk and sugar.
Drink said coffee.
Watch 45 seconds of Michael Phelps swimming 200m butterfly.
Call into work today so I can hang out with Ellie and Matt, who are coming in town for 1 night.
Probably take a shower if I can tear myself away from Tumblr.
Kiss and hug my girlfriend when she gets home from work.
Go eat at Lambert's.
Die because I'm too full.






okay, bye!

http://kerponica.tumblr.com/

You look like a perfect fit

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING WITH THIS POST AND THE ODDLY COLORED/BACKGROUNDED TEXT.

Well. 

It's been a while. 

And now I'm trying to think of something meaningful and poignant to say, when in all actuality I should just come out and say it...

I'm gay.

Queer, if you will. (I wanna take it back- I love the word queer.)

I also quit derby.
And I came out as an Agnostic Theist. (today, actually. On facebook. Which is .... nothing, really.)
I have a job! (finally.)
I'm looking for a new job, and applied to one for which I'm likely super under-qualified. (that syntax was weird.... REGARDLESS. You get my point.)

So, let's get to each of these topics! 


1. The gayness... as if you haven't noticed yet. 

I don't want to focus this post on my life-long struggle with being closeted... So I won't.
But that's the truth. I can remember all the way back to childhood and knowing the way I felt was "wrong".... But I grew up in a Conservative Southern Baptist home, so it it what it is.
I'm not surprised at some of the reactions I've gotten. And that's fine. 

I can't say it's been easy, considering one of the most important people in my life won't really talk to me anymore and has since deleted me from facebook. 

So. It is what it is. No regrets! (yolo.....? nope. Still too soon. Worst trend ever.)

1a. girlfrieeeennnnnddddddddd. :)
Probably the most perfect human ever. Incredibly intelligent, beautiful, sparkling wit. She's giving, considerate, loving.... I could talk to her forever. She's perfect, honestly. We go together like peanut butter and jelly. (hahaha oh, cliches.) She makes me feel better constantly. She makes me happy. She makes my heart skip beats. I'm madly, madly in love. But seriously. We fit. And I'm so so glad I finally opened my mind to being out and happy and not caring about anyone else's opinion - because mine is the one that matters the most.


And if you can't live life happily, the way YOU want... life's not worth living. 

http://thinng.com/1599-beer-to-my-pizza-print

1b. I reallllllyyyyyyy want to cut my hair off. I'm over this in-between long and short business. 

But do I want to do the stereotypical baby dyke thing and cut all my hair off?

Yeah... I probably do. 

Even before I came out I wanted to cut my hair like Gennifer Goodwin. 

But now, I don't need to worry about "omg, will I look like a lesbian?"

Because that's okay if I do now.

The only downside is that Girlfriend loves my long hair. haha :) She's supportive in whatever I wanna do, but she does love my long hair.

2. Derby. 

Well.... I couldn't afford it. I got laid off from my paralegal job and couldn't pay for derby anymore. 

It just wasn't fair to my teammates that I kept coming to practice, but couldn't play in games or travel, because I wasn't paying my dues.

So, I quit.

I had every intention of going back to my home league....

And then I looked back on all the shit I put up with, and decided it wasn't worth it.

If I wanted to put up with a lot of shit, then I'd go to a bigger league, work harder to make the A Team, and going to regionals/nationals then.
It just wasn't worth it anymore. Lies, drama, rumors... I was over it. 

I still love all the girls, but that league just isn't for me anymore. 

So, I'm considering a rec-league/fun league/non WFTDA league in town so that I can go and play without a lot of pressure. 

I'm scared - I haven't had skates on my feet in months, and I stopped working out because I started working all the time. SO I know I'm hella out of shape. 

So there's the short of it. I won't go into anymore detail because I have nothing against the girls, in general, and I don't want to hurt their feelings anymore than some of them hurt mine.

3. So... I'm agnostic theistic. 

I've been studying and questioning and learning more about religion ever since I took religious studies courses and mythology classes.... And I just can't find much intellect within the religious community.

I don't get it.

It doesn't make sense.

There are so many translation errors within the Bible these days - which, if we're being honest, is because the Bible was written in a much different times. Actual words meant something different. ESPECIALLY words in greek, latin and hebrew. And if they are translated wrong, your interpretation of your 'holy word' is skewed. 

For example: 

http://atheist-overdose.tumblr.com/?q=Overdose248491

And this, too:

http://imonmyway-tohappiness.tumblr.com/post/27303999404/meandnothingless-got-a-problem-with-gay

I think that the scholarly study of the Bible is so interesting.

Makes me want to go back to school. haha (But alas, I wouldn't make any money in that, and I'd be in school for about a thousand years, give or take.)

So, uh... there's that. I'm sure I'll write more about it in the future.

4. I have a job!

I'm working at a fine wine/spirits/micro beer retail store.

I kind of love it and I kind of hate it all at the same time. 

I get to hang out around, purchase with a discount, and talk about booze all day long.

However, I was hired to work days, and some weekends.... And I'm actually working nights and most weekends. Which angers me.

I also found out yesterday that one of the guys who worked at the first Store moved up here to take this job... and he was promised the same thing, and like me, didn't get it. 

He's considering moving back home, and I don't blame him one bit. 

People are honestly dropping like flies.

We just hired a new lady, and I swear to all that is holy, I will quit if she gets to work the day shifts. 

4a. I'm looking for a new job!

I need more stability. I need to know that I'll constantly be full time, regardless of conversion rates or if we hire a billion new people. 

I also need benefits with my full time status. 

Because I like to go to the doctor and dentist and such. 

I like to know that I'll be able to go to the emergency room if I need to and not be charged $5,000 for an IV drip. 

So, I applied at a bank (Thanks, Elise), even if it IS part time, it'll be more stable than my current job already. I put up my profile on Care.com to see if I can get a nanny job. And last night, after a few beers, I decided to apply for the Communications Organizer job that PROMO has open. 

It sounds amazing, and would do everything in my power to learn quickly so that I could kick ass and take names for such an amazing cause. 

However, I fear I may be woefully under-qualified, which is sad. Because, damn... what a cool fucking job. 

So uh... yeah.

that's all I got for now.

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PS - a big fatty thank you to the tumblr people from whom I stole gifs/pictures. Please don't hunt me down and kill me.... I'll get better about click-through links and giving you credit <3