I adore this song. It's a favorite shower song.
And in other news... if wanting someone new is the first step of really being over an ex... Well, pin a rose on my nose. :)
I'm ready for a new love adventure.
But this time, I won't be sitting around waiting- I have shit to do. So Prince Charming is gonna have to understand that I'm a busy lady.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
RDWV - bane of my existence.
FINALLY. A crappy picture of my first big girl bruise!I've really been a big ol' puss lately- I'm hoping it's because the PMS (pronounced in my league like "PIMS")...
Regardless! Things are good!
Last night's practice was brutal. I wasn't sure how brutal it was until I did the RDW video today. My muscles were so sore... I blame the Sandwich Hitting drills.
Elections are Tuesday.
Which is awesome AND sucks... since, you know, I have an orchestra concert that night, and in order to run, you have to be present.
Which SUCKS. Because, hello, orchestra, you're ruining my Derby life this semester.
I don't know what to do. I want to be on the board so I can help make things better- I do NOT want to wait a whole year before I can do so.
Anyway. I 'll figured out that conundrum tomorrow, I guess, with times and such. Maybe I can do both. :)
(wishful thinking... but I'm crossing my fingers anyway)
In other news, I wanted to order pads tonight... but I can't seem to make a decision to save my life.
Or maybe it's that I know what I want, but can't find a whole set of 187s. There's a package on Bruisedboutique.com that has 187 knees and elbows, but protec or triple 8 wrist guards... Which would be fine, but I already have those wrist guards.
See? WHINY.
Oh well! In other news, I went shopping. Which was glorious.
I bought two pairs of jeans, two new bras and 5 pairs of panties from Victoria's Secret. (love! perfection!) I also bought a roll-on version of Kat Von D's perfume 'Saint' to try it before I really commit to $60.
I'm probably going shopping again, because I have to dress like a guidette for a birthday party soon.
I am ill-equipped to dress as a guidette, so, to the mall I go.
What else.
Not much.. I got my phone situation settled- it was still under warranty, so they're sending me a new battery fo' free. (Technically, they're sending it to my parent's house since that's the billing address... and then they'll send it to me.)
I got the tires looked at/fixed. Pain in the ass, but it's alright.
And, if that wasn't enough- now I have a headlight out. Hooray.
So now I have to go get that fixed.
I also need an oil change, and for them to fix my windows. At least 2 of the 4 would be nice.
And maybe get my heat looked at-- it's not really heating much anymore.
Or maybe, I could just buy a new car. For $1,000 I could probably get an okay car that runs and works better than Big Sassy.
Moving on to something more positive.
Tomorrow the girls from SRG and boys from ODB are going to Ernie Bigg's Dueling Piano Bar to win some random contest which will result in lots of free pizza and 50 cent Coors draws.
And yes, I'll be partaking. I've done really well the last few days (despite the fact that I ate an extra waffle and drank nearly half a gallon of milk in the last 24 hours)... So, I'm going to wear my new pants, my new bra/panties and Enjoy a night where I don't have to count calories.
(And then feel like shit the next day, but it's totally worth it.)
And let's face it- I'll probably bar hop tomorrow. PBar then Bugsy's then The Outland to see the Detectives play. I love them! SO much fun. (And I'm usually significantly intoxicated by that time since I know my ex will be there with his slutty, awful, horrible, backstabbing new girlfriend. I promise I'm not bitter or angry anymore- It's just strange that we have friends in common and we frequent the same establishments. Especially since it was my establishment first.)
Hm.
I got nothing else.. except a few ibuprofen and some Propel to wash it down so my ribs will feel better.
Goodnight, all.
xox.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Words.
This weekend was lots of fun. So much derby!
We had a scrimmage against the StL Arch Rival girls so we could get in another WFTDA sanctioned game before the deadline.
I'm still a rookie, so I didn't play- but I sure did cheer a lot!
After, we all went to Hooters (my first time!).. so I indulged with an orange margarita, a giant bbq bacon cheeseburger and fries and later, 3 beers and a half a pack of smokes.
Okay... so I feel off the wagon pretty hardcore, but I jumped right back on today... even if today sucks.
Early this morning (about 1:30 am..) I was sober driving a few ladies home, but instead of actually driving anywhere-- my car had a flat.
Luckily, my Big's pal, Sam, was there to help me out.
I was really thankful he was there to help.
However, now I have to deal with the fact that my car needs to go to the shop.
Not to mention the fact that my phone is SHIT.. totally dead.
I have to leave it plugged in to do anything.
I took it to the craptastic TMobile store... and what did they say? "Oh, it's probably your battery. But we don't sell batteries here."
Um. What? You're a CELL PHONE STORE.
Anyway, I got angry and left the store.. Tomorrow I'll have to hunt down a battery.
And get my tires fixed.
And then have some retail therapy.
Because I deserve it.
If other news.. I skipped the RDWV at least 3 days in a row because I have this magnificent bruise on my inner thigh from a wheel and it hurt to do anything. lol
I'll have to post pictures... it's pretty incredible.
Well.. that's about it.
I'm still debating on the wheels I'm going to buy...
And considering new knee pads.. because I need 'em, bad.
Anyway. It's time to eat dinner.
I'm starving.
xox.
We had a scrimmage against the StL Arch Rival girls so we could get in another WFTDA sanctioned game before the deadline.
I'm still a rookie, so I didn't play- but I sure did cheer a lot!
After, we all went to Hooters (my first time!).. so I indulged with an orange margarita, a giant bbq bacon cheeseburger and fries and later, 3 beers and a half a pack of smokes.
Okay... so I feel off the wagon pretty hardcore, but I jumped right back on today... even if today sucks.
Early this morning (about 1:30 am..) I was sober driving a few ladies home, but instead of actually driving anywhere-- my car had a flat.
Luckily, my Big's pal, Sam, was there to help me out.
I was really thankful he was there to help.
However, now I have to deal with the fact that my car needs to go to the shop.
Not to mention the fact that my phone is SHIT.. totally dead.
I have to leave it plugged in to do anything.
I took it to the craptastic TMobile store... and what did they say? "Oh, it's probably your battery. But we don't sell batteries here."
Um. What? You're a CELL PHONE STORE.
Anyway, I got angry and left the store.. Tomorrow I'll have to hunt down a battery.
And get my tires fixed.
And then have some retail therapy.
Because I deserve it.
If other news.. I skipped the RDWV at least 3 days in a row because I have this magnificent bruise on my inner thigh from a wheel and it hurt to do anything. lol
I'll have to post pictures... it's pretty incredible.
Well.. that's about it.
I'm still debating on the wheels I'm going to buy...
And considering new knee pads.. because I need 'em, bad.
Anyway. It's time to eat dinner.
I'm starving.
xox.
Friday, January 21, 2011
RDW... New wheels?
According to the scale, I've lost 6 pounds in the last two weeks.
It doesn't make me feel very productive at all.
Granted, I'm probably one of the most impatient people you'll ever meet.
I most certainly feel stronger.
Several of the Vets told me I brought it at practice, and that I was looking good.
One of the Ozarks Derby Brigade boys told me I have good hits. THAT I will take as a huge compliment and run with it... (even if he may be a little biased because he thinks I'm like.. totally adorable ;D (Saved! reference, anyone? lol))
I got my first big girl derby bruise.
I took a skate to the thigh.
My own skate, if I'm being honest. lol
And I don't bruise.. so having one says a lot about the fall I took.
Shrug. I was playing Queen of the Rink with the boys.
Mancheeta got lucky.
I don't really have much else to add currently, except that I have had the worst craving for ice cream in the last few days. It's AWFUL.
I had a cup of sherbert one evening- it was delightful.
But it's not a giant cup of OrangeLeaf frozen yogurt with fresh berries and gummy worms on top.
A few thoughts, though...
I don't do the Facebook prescribed workouts.
I have practice, the video and an aerobic dance class.
Is anyone else going off script at all? Even in the diet?
Sometimes I feel like certain meals are tiny, and others are gigantic and I can't finish them.
Am I alone in this?
In other derby related news. I'm in the market for new wheels. (I decided on Snyder toe stops over Gumballs. But size of snyder toe stops... Maybe large? Medium? Has anyone tried the Snyders?)
Which leads me to- What kind of wheels do you use right now? If you could buy your wish-list wheels, what would they be and why?
We skate primarily on a beautiful wood floor in our rink. It's extremely slick right now because of the weather and snow and fact that Ted turns the heat off during practice. However, the floor is being re-lacquered in a few months time, which makes it super sticky.
I'm currently rolling on Demon Radars, which was okay when I first started, but I think it's time to upgrade since my Training Class and I just had our 6 Month birthday/anniversary.
Thoughts? I'd love to hear from any of you!
xox.
It doesn't make me feel very productive at all.
Granted, I'm probably one of the most impatient people you'll ever meet.
I most certainly feel stronger.
Several of the Vets told me I brought it at practice, and that I was looking good.
One of the Ozarks Derby Brigade boys told me I have good hits. THAT I will take as a huge compliment and run with it... (even if he may be a little biased because he thinks I'm like.. totally adorable ;D (Saved! reference, anyone? lol))
I got my first big girl derby bruise.
I took a skate to the thigh.
My own skate, if I'm being honest. lol
And I don't bruise.. so having one says a lot about the fall I took.
Shrug. I was playing Queen of the Rink with the boys.
Mancheeta got lucky.
I don't really have much else to add currently, except that I have had the worst craving for ice cream in the last few days. It's AWFUL.
I had a cup of sherbert one evening- it was delightful.
But it's not a giant cup of OrangeLeaf frozen yogurt with fresh berries and gummy worms on top.
A few thoughts, though...
I don't do the Facebook prescribed workouts.
I have practice, the video and an aerobic dance class.
Is anyone else going off script at all? Even in the diet?
Sometimes I feel like certain meals are tiny, and others are gigantic and I can't finish them.
Am I alone in this?
In other derby related news. I'm in the market for new wheels. (I decided on Snyder toe stops over Gumballs. But size of snyder toe stops... Maybe large? Medium? Has anyone tried the Snyders?)
Which leads me to- What kind of wheels do you use right now? If you could buy your wish-list wheels, what would they be and why?
We skate primarily on a beautiful wood floor in our rink. It's extremely slick right now because of the weather and snow and fact that Ted turns the heat off during practice. However, the floor is being re-lacquered in a few months time, which makes it super sticky.
I'm currently rolling on Demon Radars, which was okay when I first started, but I think it's time to upgrade since my Training Class and I just had our 6 Month birthday/anniversary.
Thoughts? I'd love to hear from any of you!
xox.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
RDW - on feeling feelings.
I'm having to face my bitterness and my anger and my fear now that I have nothing to fall back on (see also: food, beer and smokes).
It's not fun.
Sometimes I feel very crab-ass and reclusive. My poor roommate gets the blunt end of things.. I feel real bad for being suck a dick all the time.
And sometimes I'm quiet... Because I think I have nothing interesting to say.
(I really wish I could say this was not a consequence of being with the ex for a year plus.. But it is. It wasn't a bad relationship, per se, but his friends did know how to make me feel stupid or bitchy or.. whatever. So I learned to keep my mouth shut. How fucked up is that.)
So, here's the thing- I'm starting to lose my fear on the track. I'm starting to hit like I should, and skate like I should.. My form is getting better, my muscles are getting strong.. But outside the rink, I'm not a tiger anymore- I'm a kitten. Which is real lame.
I need to find out how to transfer Rink Tiger to Life Kitten. Because I'm not a puss. I am not a quitter, and I am not a weenie.
I read Malice Munroe's latest tumblr post... It was incredible, and it really summed up a lot of not-quite-new-anymore-but-still-a-rookie feelings- which seem to be a lot of my own feelings.
http://malicemunro.tumblr.com/post/2838658547/slightly-drunk-personal-post-on-derby-feel-free-to
Hm.
I really should be doing my homework right now. Or eating breakfast. or getting dressed...
It snowed here, and I'm not excited about it.
I'm certainly not excited about walking to campus- a walk which should take 5-10 minutes will most certainly take at least 30 today because I'll have my bag and my horn, and I'll have to cross National with all the idiots on the road today...
I've been listening to a lot of Jack's Mannequin today. Perfect music for the weather. (Who am I kidding? It's perfect music for all weather..)
"being poor was never better"
I really need to get back on the wagon of not snacking. That's my downfall.
Especially since I've only lost like, 3 pounds.
Patience, patience. What a difficult concept!
I'm feeling stronger, just not lighter.
asefajsdfjs. I really need to go to my homework for Counterpoint.
LAME.
How are you doing with the RDW?
Seeing any difference/improvement?
:)
xox.
It's not fun.
Sometimes I feel very crab-ass and reclusive. My poor roommate gets the blunt end of things.. I feel real bad for being suck a dick all the time.
And sometimes I'm quiet... Because I think I have nothing interesting to say.
(I really wish I could say this was not a consequence of being with the ex for a year plus.. But it is. It wasn't a bad relationship, per se, but his friends did know how to make me feel stupid or bitchy or.. whatever. So I learned to keep my mouth shut. How fucked up is that.)
So, here's the thing- I'm starting to lose my fear on the track. I'm starting to hit like I should, and skate like I should.. My form is getting better, my muscles are getting strong.. But outside the rink, I'm not a tiger anymore- I'm a kitten. Which is real lame.
I need to find out how to transfer Rink Tiger to Life Kitten. Because I'm not a puss. I am not a quitter, and I am not a weenie.
I read Malice Munroe's latest tumblr post... It was incredible, and it really summed up a lot of not-quite-new-anymore-but-still-a-rookie feelings- which seem to be a lot of my own feelings.
http://malicemunro.tumblr.com/post/2838658547/slightly-drunk-personal-post-on-derby-feel-free-to
Hm.
I really should be doing my homework right now. Or eating breakfast. or getting dressed...
It snowed here, and I'm not excited about it.
I'm certainly not excited about walking to campus- a walk which should take 5-10 minutes will most certainly take at least 30 today because I'll have my bag and my horn, and I'll have to cross National with all the idiots on the road today...
I've been listening to a lot of Jack's Mannequin today. Perfect music for the weather. (Who am I kidding? It's perfect music for all weather..)
"being poor was never better"
I really need to get back on the wagon of not snacking. That's my downfall.
Especially since I've only lost like, 3 pounds.
Patience, patience. What a difficult concept!
I'm feeling stronger, just not lighter.
asefajsdfjs. I really need to go to my homework for Counterpoint.
LAME.
How are you doing with the RDW?
Seeing any difference/improvement?
:)
xox.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
A non-derby post!
I think I've worked it out
I think at last the cloud has moved aside
I've spent a lifetime waiting
Awoke today to find my arms are open wide
There comes a point when things aren't clear
Then they shift into perspective
All hesitation seems to disappear
I know I've found the way
I've finally found the way to let things go
The past is there to teach you
Mistakes provide the pain that helps you grow
So I have healed and I have grown
At some point I guess you have to
BUt I don't want to face the world on my own
Something has got to start
I am ready to be loved
Someone come steal my heart
I am ready to be loved
I know you'll find me it takes time
Today I know that I'm ready to be loved
I won't depend on you
I want comfort; I don't need a crush
I need to care for someone
And know that someone out there cares for me as much
I'm on a search for something great
I won't settle for contentment
Though I am willing to, I don't want to wait
Something has got to start
I am ready to be loved
Someone come stewal my heart
I am ready to be loved
I know you'll find me it takes time
Today I know that I'm ready to be loved
I was always the girl who thought she needed to be tough
I was never the girl who liked herself enough
To feel like she deserved someone who cares
But now I do, yes I do
I'm prepared
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Um. Had a weird ass dream last night.
Something about my high school spanish teacher coming to teach at the University. I skipped class on accident, because my schedule was all effed up. He came into some class where I was hanging out with derby kids, eating cupcakes.
We hit it off.. He came to my parents house, because he moved in next door?
In my dream, he had a kid.
We smoked.
That was the dream. Strange.
To dream that you are eating alone, signifies loss, loneliness, and depression. You may feel rejected, excluded, and cut off from social/family ties. Eating may be a replacement for companionship and provide a form of comfort. Alternatively, eating alone reflects independent needs. Also consider the pun, "what's eating you up?" in reference to anxiety that you may be feeling.
To dream that you are eating with others, signifies harmony, intimacy, merriness, prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and/or joyous spirits.
To dream that you are smoking or offering a cigarette, signifies your need for a break. It may also points to issues of�dependency . However if you are against smoking and have this dream, you need to analyze aspects of your waking life and what you are doing that may adversely affect your health.
To dream that you are studying a foreign language, suggests that you are having difficulties expressing your thoughts. You are confronted with some unfamiliar problem that you do not know how to approach and resolve in your waking life.
To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, a teacher relates to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.
WEIRD.
...that's the last time I eat spinach before bed!
Something about my high school spanish teacher coming to teach at the University. I skipped class on accident, because my schedule was all effed up. He came into some class where I was hanging out with derby kids, eating cupcakes.
We hit it off.. He came to my parents house, because he moved in next door?
In my dream, he had a kid.
We smoked.
That was the dream. Strange.
To dream that you are eating alone, signifies loss, loneliness, and depression. You may feel rejected, excluded, and cut off from social/family ties. Eating may be a replacement for companionship and provide a form of comfort. Alternatively, eating alone reflects independent needs. Also consider the pun, "what's eating you up?" in reference to anxiety that you may be feeling.
To dream that you are eating with others, signifies harmony, intimacy, merriness, prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and/or joyous spirits.
To dream that you are smoking or offering a cigarette, signifies your need for a break. It may also points to issues of�dependency . However if you are against smoking and have this dream, you need to analyze aspects of your waking life and what you are doing that may adversely affect your health.
To dream that you are studying a foreign language, suggests that you are having difficulties expressing your thoughts. You are confronted with some unfamiliar problem that you do not know how to approach and resolve in your waking life.
To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, a teacher relates to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.
WEIRD.
...that's the last time I eat spinach before bed!
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